...After an year...!! ^_^

Hello people!! :)

I'm going to take a break of an year from writing anything.

From tomorrow i.e. 3rd September,my final year is commencing & I'll really have to work extremely hard to clear it.

I know I've a lot of pending posts --->

• Death Heals-2nd part
• Love Story 2006
• A guest post
• Some other personal thoughts which're yet to be written

I shall write these posts after my final year.

So till then you may go through the previous posts :-

• Love Story 2006 series .[Part 1 to Part 4]
• Unsaid words to the late confession.
• Death heals -Part 1

At first,I was going to schedule all my pending posts throughout the year,but I cancelled that plan!

Why?

Because if I would've done that,I would have been tempted to check for the comments !! :)

**Hope to see you all soon**

Please pray for my third year results! :(

7 theory subjects + 7 practicals + 10 months to prepare = STRESS.

Byee people! Thanks everyone for the wishes[In advance].

I may not be able to comment on your blogs or reply to your comments on mine.Excuse me for one year.

:)

Note - May not be online too.Please leave your message on gtalk/orkut/facebook if you've something really important to share! :)

I don't promise I'll reply but I shall try my best. ^_^

Friendship day!!!!!!!!---More than just a "DAY"...

Wishing everyone a

VERY HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!!!!! :)

I love this day except for tying the friendship belts! :)

I believe friendship day is not about tying friendship belts only.It's a lot more than that...

Today on this friendship day,I've lots of new friends who I did not have last year. :)

However,that doesn't mean old ones are forgotten...

I still miss all of them.I feel, in the pursuit of making new friends old ones are left behind.I miss all the special moments that I had shared with them in the previous years.Yes,calls've ceased.Conversations've become shorter/almost nil.

Things are different now.Destinations are different.Life's very unpredictable.I don't know where we all will be few years later or perhaps next year itself.

My best friend is in Pune;We both are going to watch Love Aajkal but with different people !! :(

Inspite of all this uncertainty of life, I'm sure of one thing in life.

There are a few people who'll always be friends with me,no matter what!!!!!! :)

:)

Now,I shall write someday later.I've to attend calls & reply to messages-emails-scraps... :)[I've to make a few calls,too]

Wishing you a very happy friendship day once again!! :)

^_^

The perfect conversation! ^_^

^^Beginning Song for the post :- Tumse kahe ya hum na kahe...[from the movie Bride & Prejudice]^^

He :- Hey...Hiiii Dish!

Me :- Hie.

He :- I am sorry.I made you wait till late...

Me :- It's okay.

He :- Say something Dish....Are you still angry?

Me :- No.I'm not.

....Silence....

He :- Dish,are you there?

Me :- Yes.

He :- Come on girl...I said I'm sorry.Please forgive me.I know I make you wait everyday but I'm helpless.You know it,don't you?

Me :- Ya...Fine...How was your day?

He :- Thank God you said something.My day was okay.How was yours?

Me :- Same here.

He :- Did you miss me?

Me :- No.

He :- Okay.

Me :- Why?

He :- Nothing.Just like that.

Me :- Alright...By the way,can I ask you something?

He :- Dish!!You can.You have that right :-)

Me :- Hmmm...You always say you consider me your best friend.What if a time comes when you've to select between me & your girlfriend?I mean,who would you select?
"Me as your best friend" or " **someone else** as your girlfriend "?

He :- Why do you want to know?What do you wish to hear,Dish?

Me :- The truth!!??!!

He :- Will you've the courage to face the truth?

Me :- Don't you trust your best friend?

He :- Ofcourse I do....Alright.There would not be a question of such a selection ever in my life.I've just one girl in my life.The girl who stays up till midnight waiting for me to get online,but when she's asked whether she missed me or not,she cannot say a simple "yes"...I'm in love with that shy girl who cannot even say that she misses me.I'm in love with that girl whose voice shakes when she says "hello" when I call her up,the girl who is scared to say she cares.I'm in love with her for the love poems she writes for me & on being asked about the person for whom it is written,simply changes the topic...
I'm in love with the simple,frank & uncomplicated girl whose eyes say it all...
I love her for what she is & the person she wants to be.
I love the girl who,I know, loves me more than anyone can ever imagine and the innocent girl who gets so insecure & is scared of losing me when I talk about my female college-classmates who're mere acquaintances...
I've fallen in love with the girl who is at the moment wondering who that girl is.
Dish,you know I would rather select "you" as my girlfriend than someone else.
And you know what!!I would never call you my girlfriend.I would wish to share my life only with you & make you my life-partner.I won't insult our relationship by labelling it as a "boyfriend-girlfriend" relationship.I've fallen in love with you, Dish.I truly love you...

Do you??

Me :- I had never thought I would get to hear this from you.I always thought I did not deserve you & cried silent tears every night praying for you....I hadn't expected my dreams to get true.I always said "No" when you asked if I missed you 'cause I was scared to say how much I did...I miss you every moment when you aren't with me.I love you madly & you mean more than the world to me...

He :- Thank God,Dish!!My shy girl finally said the words which were locked in her heart from such a long time :-)
I'll make sure you never have to cry.No matter what I'll never let you go.

-------Conversation Truncated & Concealed-------

....Shhhhhhhhhh....

Ending song for the post :- Jaage Jaage Armaan hai...Jaage Jaage hum.... [from the movie Mere Yaar Ki Shaadi Hai]

:)

India needs leaders and no dealers.....

I hate politics,I hate politicians,I hate writing about them,I hated
studying about civics & economics.I know it's important to know it all if
you're a part of democracy like India,but I don't understand a word I read about politics.

So this is my first post about POLITICS,and perhaps the last too[Till the next election :)]

30/04/2009----

It was the election date.Most of the people were bent upon awakening the other to vote and the businessmen were busy persuading everyone to vote by huge discount offers on showing the famous black spot - the proof that they had voted. Even the radio jockeys at various radio stations were doing the same job.

As far as I was concerned,it was not like a "normal" holiday-a sunday.It was the festical of politics,where I had to do something so important and that too for the first time in my life.---- VOTE!! .... and then show off that black dot proudly to everyone around.

I had not received my election card,but my dad assured me that I would be allowed to vote on showing my identity & residence proof.I was not very keen on voting,but those vote campaigns had awakened the enthusiastic voter in me !! :D

A friend told me that the candidates bribed certain class of people to vote for them and the money[Read : bribe/black money] those people earned was lakhs of rupees.

I was shocked.I was feeling so helpless.I was far too innocent to imagine such things were actually happening.I thought if these people applied a bit of their business mind to constructive activities,for the welfare of the people;the future of India would be so much better than expected. But these corrupt people,who keep running after money all the time;the unethical politicians;the immoral citizens-----all these things and lot more has weakened India.I feel so sorry that I don't have enough authority & courage to fight against all this.

How I wish I could undertake a sting operation,catch the politicians red-handed when they're bribing people and those sick DISGUSTING citizens of INDIA who actually accept the bribe and happily enjoy partying with that dishonest earning.

Horrible,isn't it?

It hurts me more than anything ever.To be honest,I'm not the "perfect patriot" kind of a girl,but I'm surely concerned for my country & its future.It's my moral responsibility for the sake of humanity-not only for India but for any DEMOCRATIC country as a bonafide citizen of that particular country.

Anyways,all these are mere talks and talks don't help.I know I cannot reveal the names of people involved in all this,but I surely wish I can do something.

I wish I can catch each one of them,get them arrested and drag them to the court. I know it very well that even if I reveal those names,people will question me regarding evidences,which I'm not going to have.

Anyways forget it.Talk & forget-Thats all I can do.I'm such an ordinary citizen-another common man who cannot do anything inspite of being the witness to all the injustice and a victim of corruption.[Courtesy: movie -Wednesday].I don't have any other option.I cannot call the police and tell them 'cause you never know even they might be involved[Sorry - to all the genuine policemen out there,if at all anyone is reading].

Okay,now coming back to my first vote....

The centre was not at all crowded.The people posted with the job of handling the voting procedures were literally sitting idle,whiling away time,cracking jokes,laughing at the silliest jokes and gossiping.

Tch-Tch!!

What a situation!!

They were cracking jokes on the blue ink which turned black[which was used for applying the black spot.]--- "This can be used as a dye to colour the hair black". Thats what I heard.

Huh!!I guess this was the poorest joke I have heard in my life,but I completely sympathize with them.

That was the scene at the polling centres.

Scene at home :-

Everyone was busy watching poll news about the poll percentage and few glimpses of IPL.

I swear,I'm so not interested in cricket.IPL makes me sick! and on the top of it all,IPL is the "current event" thing.Status messages on all social networking sites,applications on all social networking sites,blogs,newspapers,tv channels,college conversations,bets,celebrity crushes,messenger chats,messenger status messages--------EVERY second thing is about IPL-Mumbai something,Delhi something....God knows what are those names.

Anyways coming back to elections...

The news channels had got a new topic apart from IPL.

"Aaj Mumbai ne kiya niraash....."

"Only 46.63% people voted at Mumbai......."

Then,the celebritiessssssss-----

"John Abraham,Sonam Kapoor,Amrita Rao,Abhishek Bacchan,Aishwarya Bacchan,Jaya Bacchan,Amitabh Bacchan etc etc etc....WENT TO VOTE".

This was the breaking news.

And then The top 10 celebrities who did not vote---

5 in actors,5 in actresses :-

Ajay Devgan,Saif Ali Khan,Akshay Kumar,Salman Khan,Deepika Padukone,Priyanka Chopra,Kareena Kapoor etc. etc. --I don't remember the names.Please excuse me.--These people did not vote.Inspite of being a part of the inspiring advertisement to make people vote,these stupid celebrities did not vote.
It was so damn irritating.News channels are sooooooo irritating.....
Moreover,In Mumbai they applied that black spot on the middle finger,so in case they have to show the proof that they had voted,they would have to show all the fingers together...Poor Mumbai!! :P

Phew...enough of all this.I shall post more after 5 years!! :P

P.S. :- We give them vote.What do they give us? I'm thankful to this line and the autorickshaw wala who had got this line painted on his autorickshaw.

--------Note: I'm not answerable to anyone,any legislation,any politician,any policeman or any other common man like me.We all know the realities of "INDIA" and we've to accept it,shut out mouth,sit back blindfolded and let everything happen.-------

If you can do anything about the malpractices going on,please consider my support,encouragement and appreciation. :)

Inspired from ---
http://nitawriter.wordpress.com/
http://thoughtsrain.blogspot.com/2009/05/v-days.html

Pretence versus reality......!!

10 days before

Phew!!!

Actually it was a hectic day at college,but inspite of being exhausted,there was something which made all of that disappear and gave a feeling of peace ..... -----The reason as follows :)

There's this girl Anjali in my class..She's a classmate,not a friend exactly but surely an acquaintance.
We were supposed to stay back after college hours on that day for project work.
There's a guy Rahul who kinda loves the girl ....
He also was waiting[obviously for the girl] but outside the college premises.

Suddenly he came to the lecture hall where we were working,handed the girl's cellphone to her and informed that her mom had called up....The girl's hands were busy['cause we were completing the project work],so obviously she couldn't receive the call.

The cell phone rang again and the guy held the cell phone against her ears so that she could talk...!!

I know it seems very ordinary while reading,but at college,this is the only genuine love[as far as my perception is concerned].
Though they haven't yet confessed or told each other what they feel,they have pure innocent love and I'm glad the guy has never ever flirted with any other girl in all these three years.

I honestly wish we could be atleast friends,But I'm way too reserved for that :)

Their relationship is like - "Everyone knows they're meant to be,EXCEPT them" :)

And ya they have no other "public displays of affection",that cheap showing off of overwhelming emotions and overflowing outbursts like few other couples in the college who only keep showing off,Don't know if they'll last.
....[It's really very irritating.]

Please stop all that,if you're reading!!

[Names have been changed to conceal identities.]

::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

Today,I was at Cafe Coffee Day with a few friends...


There was a girl at the adjacent table,sitting all alone with an ipod,having a cup of coffee.She seemed upset.I drew the attention of my friends towards her.She was also staring at us :)

I thought perhaps she was going through a tough phase[of breakup/something].My friends laughed it away that "Dish,tujhe to sab me breakup hi lagta hai..."
I thought "May be they're right".....But somehow I still think something was wrong with her ....[Right now also :D]

We had a cup of coffee and were about to disperse....

Suddenly,a friend pointed out at a girl & guy who were about to kiss each other.She said "Hey,did you see that?They were actually going to kiss each other."

I was like "Come on!!This is CCD.How can they do that and that too when they are sitting outside on the roadside."

{[In Ahmedabad,it's not a common sight]May be it's common in a few other places}

Saying this I just turned at the couple and......

SHITTTTT!!

I was actually shocked at the scene I just happened to witness....

YUCKKKKKK!!

They were actually kissing each other.A friend just spoke up "They're sure to make out tonight..."

We all were laughing...but inside I was thinking "Was that genuine love or was it just a public display of crap affection and meaningless love?"

Whatever it may be,it was truly disgusting.[My perception]


Of course,the guys around seemed to be enjoying the movie going on....

Nevertheless,who cares!

Their life,Their wish!!

But what I concluded from this is there are strange ways of life....

Someone's all alone in life with no one to care,no one to make them smile and a past they can never forget and which will always make them cry;Someone else seems to have love overflowing in his/her life with nothing to cry;Some people who're waiting for someone who can give them a reason to live,a reason to smile and forget the indifference they have faced so that they can move on.....

However,it's better to sit alone upset than do all those disgusting stuff which should be saved for your personal life[for your bedroom,to be precise!!]

I had to say this out.M still ASTONISHED,you see!!



:D


And yes,I'm not imposing my outlook on anyone or targetting anyone's personal perceptions.You're free to think that the couple at CCD was "sweet". :P

Maybe she is fine.....!!

"Hey Dish,Are you fine?"

"Obviously!! Why?What would be wrong with me!!??"

"No.I asked 'cause I just happened to know that He is getting engaged next week."

"Ah!!You know what?For the first time in my life I'm really happy.I'm thankful that he was not the "one".bach gai main....and moreover he has lost something.I never had him anyways,so I had nothing to lose!! " :)

"Dish,Are you really Disha?"

"Oh come on!!Do you think I'm still the little girl who'll cry,crib and grieve over her past?Just forget it.I don't give a damn.I'm very happy for him.He has finally found her.I'm also happy for my own self" :)

"I'm glad you're okay.You've moved on & finally you know that it was never really meant to be.I'm happy you're over it."

"You know something?I owe this to you.Thanks for always being there,and listening to all those stupid songs with me and reading the gtalk conversations,yahoo chats and laughing with me & making me realize how fake it was!I'm grateful to God that he gave me a friend like you.Thankyou for everything."

"Dish,one more philosophical funda from Disha ashram and I'm going to just call the cops to get you arrested for mental harrassment.I've always told you Start conducting lectures in Disha Ashram" :D

"Relax...This was just the trailor.I'll show you the entire movie some other day!!"

----And both of them laugh and continue their friendly conversation,leaving aside the "move on" Story...!!----

Waiting .... Waiting....!!

Knowing you're happy doesn't break my heart;
But knowing you're happy without me surely does.

Knowing you don't love me doesn't break my heart;
But knowing you love someone else surely does.....!!

And after the heartbreak I've got nothing to feel.
Now at the thought of you,dejected & alone I surely feel;
but nothing more than that-Neither love,nor hate.

Vulnerable though as I before was;
Comfortably numb as I today am
Peacefully happy tomorrow I'll surely be.....
Still awaiting that genuine person by my side to be........!!

Do Not Miss Me!!

Dear,I'll be back,
Once I'm done with my exams.

No need to be sad,No need to frown.
Oh sweetheart!Please cheer up now.
This time will also fly by soon ....

My friend,I'll soon be with you.
It's just a matter of few days.
Stay happy,take care and be cool!
Smile and make sure to be good.

Memories sweet till then you cherish,
Exams ke baad ham karenge adhuri baate sari ...

;)

I know,it's a "stupid si poem"...

Like it/Hate it,but don't be indiferent to it!!

:)


Note:-I was getting bored while studying,which resulted in this acrostic poem!!

:D Blame my books for this "stupid-sa-idea".

Delhi 6 according to me!! :)

I had been genuinely waiting for this movie to release....Finally it released & I watched it on the first sunday.........YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

:D

The features of Delhi 6......!! ---->

The pigeon........It is soooooooooooooooooo sweet and white ;)[Had to mention about the pigeon first] :D
The music......... :-

I love the music of the movie.It's simple yet melodious.
I thought the song "Rehna Tu" must have been sung by Abhishek for Sonam...

However,it was for Delhi....he he!!

I liked the movie overall.It was a good concept.[I also appreciate the direction,photography & screenplay]

Oh ya and ofcourse,Sonam and Abhishek[Sonam first :)]

It was about the little things which are a part of India's culture,the way we(as INDIANS) take things and the way we love & care for others.

Obviously,it won't be liked by EVERYYYYYYYONE,but if you've been to Delhi and know the life there,you'll surely like it.

:)

My take :-

Watch it atleast once!

The good in Dev D!!

It was 6th February 2009.

The modern Devdas based movie Dev D had released.

It was a long-awaited movie among many of the youngsters,including my friend.

I was not very keen on watching it,but I like watching movies;and my friend insisted on watching the movie on the next day-7th February 2009......

We both were expecting the movie to be "BAD"....However,we were wrong.It was worse than we expected.

Cheap dialogues,Vulgar comments....
"Not so good" scenes and abusive words....

What I've written in thes two lines is only the highlight[Picture abhi baki hai,Ye to sirf trailor hai!!].Watching the movie is altogether a different thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But ya!!

There was something good about it....

Abhay Deol looked good[For a change].
Two dialogues were good in the movie...[ONLY TWO]
The end was better than the previous Devdas.

Also,the background score is good.

And the best part-------

EMOTIONAL ATYACHAR!!!!

I absolutely love this song.Don't ask me the reason 'cause even I'm still wondering!!

:D

I find the songs "O Pardesi" and "Ye meri zindagi" also excellent.[Woooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww]

:)

Ya I know,I know!!

There's nothing "wow" in those songs,but WHO CARES what others think!![Even my mom hates these songs!!]

It's my perception,after all!!

:-P

Reality ......~~!!!!!

Just knowing that he's happy makes me smile,
But realizing he's happy without me and fine with it hurts the most...

I've never seen him so happy....so cheerful....Now that I see that smile on his face,I realize that he doesn't need me,he never really wanted to be with me....!!

I am gradually getting to realize what he had in his mind,when he wanted me to hear the song "Careless Whispers"...

Perhaps,he knew I will be able to relate to that song after he's not in my life.

:)

"He said it all...
I felt it all...
He made me believe it all..."


After all those tears he has given you,you still manage to love him and despite everything,you can never hate him and you can never learn not to love him and he doesn't learn to love you!!

The girl who "WAS"...!!!

I used to know a girl who used to live life on her own terms.She had her own strange principles.A girl with a clean conscience.She had her own morals and values in life instilled in her by her parents,teachers and some like-minded friends.

She believed in giving each relationship the required space,maintaining the dignity of everyone around her and never mixed relationships.
She had her own dreams,her own world of hopes and wishes which she did not share with anyone...

She was very friendly and frank with the people who were close to her but very reserved for strangers.

One of the most level-headed person I had ever come across.

She could do anything to help her friends.A patient listener,A brilliant conversationalist.

She could convince people pretty well and could make anyone around her feel comfortable.

She literally proved the quote true -

"I'm the kind of girl with no secrets,yet I'm trusted to keep everyone else's."

She truly was!!!!!!!!!

She knew many many many secrets about many people and she always kept them to herself.[She still does :) ]

There were those secret-sharers who had become strangers for her [Some had even become back-biters],but she never ever broke the trust they "HAD" put in her.

She never kept any personal grudges towards anyone.

She had her own rules for life which were quite contrary to the thinking of the friends in her circle;But that never changed her.

I silently used to observe her and I was quite happy that she never tried to change,thinking she was the "odd-one-out".

I always thought she'll never change.

This was true till she entered her college..................................................!!

A whole new world was around her.She was a very introvert girl but she somehow managed to join some of the people she already knew since her school days[Fortunately,she had some of her acquaintances around,with whom she "THOUGHT" she'll be very HAPPY...Obviously,she was proved wrong.]

She tried to gel with all of them.Inspite of being very uncomfortable she pretended to be comfortable....

This couldn't last long.

She was a very different kind of a person & no matter how much she tried she couldn't overcome her basic nature.

She HAD TO CHANGE,not because of them but because of her own good.Afterall,she had to be with those people for 4 years....

She had to pretend every moment at college.She was no longer "the most helpful person" I had ever come across.She bluntly refused for any help.

She had become rude towards everyone.

She had lost some of her best friends and this made her doubt everyone's friendship.

People who had promised to be with her forever were no longer with her & the worst part was she did not even know why had they become so apart.

There were some other people with whom she was forced to part ways.

She was no longer friends with the people to whom she used to talk for hours together,share the most stupid talks,have silly conversations and still wanting to talk more.Her friends who taught her how to dream and how to be hopeful & optimistic,who made her adore music,who made her love life and the one who taught her how to love-All of them & many more had all left her to face the world alone.....
Some moments no one could ever bring back,some relationships she could not recreate.....There were friends whose absence mattered so much that the presence of the entire world hardly made any difference.She missed all those wonderful times when she was with the people she loved to be with.

She was not the most talkative girl any longer,'cause she had no one to listen to.

The people with whom she shared everything were not with her and she couldn't accept new people in her life.

She wanted to hold on to the memories;The new people she had come across could not make her feel even half the way her old friends did.

She couldn't get along well with them,even though she tried her best.

It was not that she did not like them or she hated them.

It was perhaps that the people did not like her,may be because she was an introvert or because she was DIFFERENT!

Her so-called college friends used to enjoy partying,watching movies and had a great time whenever they were together.

However,her presence never mattered to them.
Her opinions and her thoughts were never considered.



This had hurt her a lot and she was compelled to change.
People used to tell her to move on,but they had not been in her place;They hadn't perhaps gone through what she was going through.

She felt extremely low and side-tracked.

There were some others who used to leave no stones unturned to insult her.

Moreover,she's no longer friends with me also....

It's not that I left her or people left her;She herself let those people go.

And I'm quite sure,she's happier and her life must be much more peaceful now.I surely do miss her,but somewhere may be I had also taken her for granted and I could not stand by her and live upto her minor expectations....

[Don't let your friends leave you.Hold onto them,'cause you might miss them once they are gone,like I do...!!!!]