"I still miss her..."

*Purely fictional*

Name courtesy for the guy's name :- My nephew!! :D
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It was yet another day when I was in some serious conversation with Reyansh. The topic was "Why do people walk away,Why do things change"...My favorite discussion topic and somehow the most disheartening too.. :(

I knew Reyansh's best friend Yashri had walked away from him at the time he needed her the most and when everyone[including me] thought they could never ever be separated....

No they did not have any fight and they were not in love too. She simply walked away to a new world without any words of goodbye/farewell.Atleast this is what I know!!!

I don't know if it's any different than this.I could never ask Reyansh "What went wrong between you and Yashri...?"

It was 2009 and I was not very close to Reyansh, not as much as I am today! :)

I had managed to know of Reyansh and Yashri's inseparable relationship by stalking Reyansh's orkut scraps,certain blog posts which were written just for THEIR amazing relationship and some of our common friends who shared Reyansh-Yashri incidents with me...!!

I stalked his profile 'cause I was kinda obsessed with his blog,things he wrote and I was somewhat infatuated by him.

I still am !! :D

I was tempted to ask him so many times- "Do you still miss Yashri...?" inspite of knowing the obvious answer "YES"...

That day I finally gathered some courage and asked him in the name of the topic of discussion and under that lame pretext!!!! :D

"You miss Yashri a lot,don't you?"

Reyansh did not even wait to reply--- "Ofcourse I do..."

He continued after a pause-"She was my best friend.She is still somewhere within me.She was with me during the time no one else was.She was the kind of person who could motivate me,inspire me to hear what my heart says,do what I liked to do.She was the one who persuaded me to write a blog.She was the one who made me understand what I'm good at.She has left a part of her with me.During tough times,I still think what she would have done if she had to face this or what she would have asked me to do if she was with me.I'm grateful to her for so many things.I'm sure my sweetheart must be happy wherever she is and whosoever she is with....She must be spreading smiles around in everyone's life just the way she did in mine.No one can ever take that place and fill the void left by her...And I hate to say this but I don't think I would ever be able to give the same place to you or anyone else.The role she played in my life,so what if it was just for 2 years ; and the place she had in my life,my blog posts, the poems I dedicated to her and the wishes I penned down for her-I cannot do it for anyone else..."

"Hmmm...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I was a bit hurt,upset and speechless.This conversation left me with few more questions...- "Why do we never value the person we have and cling on to the ones who don't.....Would Reyansh miss me if I ever walk away...?"
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He cares for me and loves me too...!!!

It feels AWESOME tonight and that is the sole reason why I'm posting this...

When I wasn't online,he called me up just to ask me "Where was I lost"...

When I deactivated my facebook account,he messaged me to ask me the reason...

When my phone was switched off and he couldn't reach me,he actually called up my best friend and sent me a message on gtalk.[My fb account was deactivated at that time.]

When I was not well,he called me up four times in a day to make sure I recover fast...

A facebook status message prank of me going abroad made him call me up immediately...

When I cried bitter tears in front of him,he wiped it with his brand new shirt and did not care if it got spoiled...

When I held his hand,he did not make that moment AWKWARD.Instead,he hugged me tight and made me feel a lot better...

And the best part...

When I told him "I love you", he did not FRIENDZONE me...'cause he felt the same way and he loved me back too...! :)
It feels great to know someone out there cares so much....!! :)

Why !!????!!??

Last night I couldn't sleep as I was once again reminded of all the games he played and the fake promises that he made..

Even after all this time, he manages to hurt me,frustrate me and curse my destiny.

Every time I think of all those words that he said which he never meant,I get all the more upset with myself and fate.

Why did God ever make me meet that jerk?

Why is someone's life so "love-filled" and someone else's life so "lonely"?

I always have questions regarding this injustice to someone's life!!

Alas!These questions will always be questions.

The only answer everyone has is :- "Everything happens for a reason".

I can somehow never understand this statement.What reason would there be in getting hurt and crying...!!!!

Then again,I get upset thinking what would anyone get by hurting anyone else.How does playing with someone's feelings help?

How does making someone innocent ,cry make someone else happy?

Why can't people stand by their commitment and promises?

You need just one person,You ask for just one person to be by your side all your life..!

Is having one person for your life,so difficult?

So many people in this world and still you cannot have "ONE" person who would care for you and say "Are you okay?"

Well,frankly speaking I am not...!!
But I would be,if he would care enough to ask atleast once.

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...After an year...!! ^_^

Hello people!! :)

I'm going to take a break of an year from writing anything.

From tomorrow i.e. 3rd September,my final year is commencing & I'll really have to work extremely hard to clear it.

I know I've a lot of pending posts --->

• Death Heals-2nd part
• Love Story 2006
• A guest post
• Some other personal thoughts which're yet to be written

I shall write these posts after my final year.

So till then you may go through the previous posts :-

• Love Story 2006 series .[Part 1 to Part 4]
• Unsaid words to the late confession.
• Death heals -Part 1

At first,I was going to schedule all my pending posts throughout the year,but I cancelled that plan!

Why?

Because if I would've done that,I would have been tempted to check for the comments !! :)

**Hope to see you all soon**

Please pray for my third year results! :(

7 theory subjects + 7 practicals + 10 months to prepare = STRESS.

Byee people! Thanks everyone for the wishes[In advance].

I may not be able to comment on your blogs or reply to your comments on mine.Excuse me for one year.

:)

Note - May not be online too.Please leave your message on gtalk/orkut/facebook if you've something really important to share! :)

I don't promise I'll reply but I shall try my best. ^_^

Friendship day!!!!!!!!---More than just a "DAY"...

Wishing everyone a

VERY HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!!!!! :)

I love this day except for tying the friendship belts! :)

I believe friendship day is not about tying friendship belts only.It's a lot more than that...

Today on this friendship day,I've lots of new friends who I did not have last year. :)

However,that doesn't mean old ones are forgotten...

I still miss all of them.I feel, in the pursuit of making new friends old ones are left behind.I miss all the special moments that I had shared with them in the previous years.Yes,calls've ceased.Conversations've become shorter/almost nil.

Things are different now.Destinations are different.Life's very unpredictable.I don't know where we all will be few years later or perhaps next year itself.

My best friend is in Pune;We both are going to watch Love Aajkal but with different people !! :(

Inspite of all this uncertainty of life, I'm sure of one thing in life.

There are a few people who'll always be friends with me,no matter what!!!!!! :)

:)

Now,I shall write someday later.I've to attend calls & reply to messages-emails-scraps... :)[I've to make a few calls,too]

Wishing you a very happy friendship day once again!! :)

^_^

The perfect conversation! ^_^

^^Beginning Song for the post :- Tumse kahe ya hum na kahe...[from the movie Bride & Prejudice]^^

He :- Hey...Hiiii Dish!

Me :- Hie.

He :- I am sorry.I made you wait till late...

Me :- It's okay.

He :- Say something Dish....Are you still angry?

Me :- No.I'm not.

....Silence....

He :- Dish,are you there?

Me :- Yes.

He :- Come on girl...I said I'm sorry.Please forgive me.I know I make you wait everyday but I'm helpless.You know it,don't you?

Me :- Ya...Fine...How was your day?

He :- Thank God you said something.My day was okay.How was yours?

Me :- Same here.

He :- Did you miss me?

Me :- No.

He :- Okay.

Me :- Why?

He :- Nothing.Just like that.

Me :- Alright...By the way,can I ask you something?

He :- Dish!!You can.You have that right :-)

Me :- Hmmm...You always say you consider me your best friend.What if a time comes when you've to select between me & your girlfriend?I mean,who would you select?
"Me as your best friend" or " **someone else** as your girlfriend "?

He :- Why do you want to know?What do you wish to hear,Dish?

Me :- The truth!!??!!

He :- Will you've the courage to face the truth?

Me :- Don't you trust your best friend?

He :- Ofcourse I do....Alright.There would not be a question of such a selection ever in my life.I've just one girl in my life.The girl who stays up till midnight waiting for me to get online,but when she's asked whether she missed me or not,she cannot say a simple "yes"...I'm in love with that shy girl who cannot even say that she misses me.I'm in love with that girl whose voice shakes when she says "hello" when I call her up,the girl who is scared to say she cares.I'm in love with her for the love poems she writes for me & on being asked about the person for whom it is written,simply changes the topic...
I'm in love with the simple,frank & uncomplicated girl whose eyes say it all...
I love her for what she is & the person she wants to be.
I love the girl who,I know, loves me more than anyone can ever imagine and the innocent girl who gets so insecure & is scared of losing me when I talk about my female college-classmates who're mere acquaintances...
I've fallen in love with the girl who is at the moment wondering who that girl is.
Dish,you know I would rather select "you" as my girlfriend than someone else.
And you know what!!I would never call you my girlfriend.I would wish to share my life only with you & make you my life-partner.I won't insult our relationship by labelling it as a "boyfriend-girlfriend" relationship.I've fallen in love with you, Dish.I truly love you...

Do you??

Me :- I had never thought I would get to hear this from you.I always thought I did not deserve you & cried silent tears every night praying for you....I hadn't expected my dreams to get true.I always said "No" when you asked if I missed you 'cause I was scared to say how much I did...I miss you every moment when you aren't with me.I love you madly & you mean more than the world to me...

He :- Thank God,Dish!!My shy girl finally said the words which were locked in her heart from such a long time :-)
I'll make sure you never have to cry.No matter what I'll never let you go.

-------Conversation Truncated & Concealed-------

....Shhhhhhhhhh....

Ending song for the post :- Jaage Jaage Armaan hai...Jaage Jaage hum.... [from the movie Mere Yaar Ki Shaadi Hai]

:)

India needs leaders and no dealers.....

I hate politics,I hate politicians,I hate writing about them,I hated
studying about civics & economics.I know it's important to know it all if
you're a part of democracy like India,but I don't understand a word I read about politics.

So this is my first post about POLITICS,and perhaps the last too[Till the next election :)]

30/04/2009----

It was the election date.Most of the people were bent upon awakening the other to vote and the businessmen were busy persuading everyone to vote by huge discount offers on showing the famous black spot - the proof that they had voted. Even the radio jockeys at various radio stations were doing the same job.

As far as I was concerned,it was not like a "normal" holiday-a sunday.It was the festical of politics,where I had to do something so important and that too for the first time in my life.---- VOTE!! .... and then show off that black dot proudly to everyone around.

I had not received my election card,but my dad assured me that I would be allowed to vote on showing my identity & residence proof.I was not very keen on voting,but those vote campaigns had awakened the enthusiastic voter in me !! :D

A friend told me that the candidates bribed certain class of people to vote for them and the money[Read : bribe/black money] those people earned was lakhs of rupees.

I was shocked.I was feeling so helpless.I was far too innocent to imagine such things were actually happening.I thought if these people applied a bit of their business mind to constructive activities,for the welfare of the people;the future of India would be so much better than expected. But these corrupt people,who keep running after money all the time;the unethical politicians;the immoral citizens-----all these things and lot more has weakened India.I feel so sorry that I don't have enough authority & courage to fight against all this.

How I wish I could undertake a sting operation,catch the politicians red-handed when they're bribing people and those sick DISGUSTING citizens of INDIA who actually accept the bribe and happily enjoy partying with that dishonest earning.

Horrible,isn't it?

It hurts me more than anything ever.To be honest,I'm not the "perfect patriot" kind of a girl,but I'm surely concerned for my country & its future.It's my moral responsibility for the sake of humanity-not only for India but for any DEMOCRATIC country as a bonafide citizen of that particular country.

Anyways,all these are mere talks and talks don't help.I know I cannot reveal the names of people involved in all this,but I surely wish I can do something.

I wish I can catch each one of them,get them arrested and drag them to the court. I know it very well that even if I reveal those names,people will question me regarding evidences,which I'm not going to have.

Anyways forget it.Talk & forget-Thats all I can do.I'm such an ordinary citizen-another common man who cannot do anything inspite of being the witness to all the injustice and a victim of corruption.[Courtesy: movie -Wednesday].I don't have any other option.I cannot call the police and tell them 'cause you never know even they might be involved[Sorry - to all the genuine policemen out there,if at all anyone is reading].

Okay,now coming back to my first vote....

The centre was not at all crowded.The people posted with the job of handling the voting procedures were literally sitting idle,whiling away time,cracking jokes,laughing at the silliest jokes and gossiping.

Tch-Tch!!

What a situation!!

They were cracking jokes on the blue ink which turned black[which was used for applying the black spot.]--- "This can be used as a dye to colour the hair black". Thats what I heard.

Huh!!I guess this was the poorest joke I have heard in my life,but I completely sympathize with them.

That was the scene at the polling centres.

Scene at home :-

Everyone was busy watching poll news about the poll percentage and few glimpses of IPL.

I swear,I'm so not interested in cricket.IPL makes me sick! and on the top of it all,IPL is the "current event" thing.Status messages on all social networking sites,applications on all social networking sites,blogs,newspapers,tv channels,college conversations,bets,celebrity crushes,messenger chats,messenger status messages--------EVERY second thing is about IPL-Mumbai something,Delhi something....God knows what are those names.

Anyways coming back to elections...

The news channels had got a new topic apart from IPL.

"Aaj Mumbai ne kiya niraash....."

"Only 46.63% people voted at Mumbai......."

Then,the celebritiessssssss-----

"John Abraham,Sonam Kapoor,Amrita Rao,Abhishek Bacchan,Aishwarya Bacchan,Jaya Bacchan,Amitabh Bacchan etc etc etc....WENT TO VOTE".

This was the breaking news.

And then The top 10 celebrities who did not vote---

5 in actors,5 in actresses :-

Ajay Devgan,Saif Ali Khan,Akshay Kumar,Salman Khan,Deepika Padukone,Priyanka Chopra,Kareena Kapoor etc. etc. --I don't remember the names.Please excuse me.--These people did not vote.Inspite of being a part of the inspiring advertisement to make people vote,these stupid celebrities did not vote.
It was so damn irritating.News channels are sooooooo irritating.....
Moreover,In Mumbai they applied that black spot on the middle finger,so in case they have to show the proof that they had voted,they would have to show all the fingers together...Poor Mumbai!! :P

Phew...enough of all this.I shall post more after 5 years!! :P

P.S. :- We give them vote.What do they give us? I'm thankful to this line and the autorickshaw wala who had got this line painted on his autorickshaw.

--------Note: I'm not answerable to anyone,any legislation,any politician,any policeman or any other common man like me.We all know the realities of "INDIA" and we've to accept it,shut out mouth,sit back blindfolded and let everything happen.-------

If you can do anything about the malpractices going on,please consider my support,encouragement and appreciation. :)

Inspired from ---
http://nitawriter.wordpress.com/
http://thoughtsrain.blogspot.com/2009/05/v-days.html